Wow!

I’ll cut right to it.

I had light to moderate tics today.

Yesterday might not have been a fluke after all. I didn’t think this would be a fast process.

YGTSS: 14

Practiced: Controlled breathing techniques.

My cat was being friendly for once.

Just had a long and very stressful day.

Didn’t get to my session until almost 11pm!

You’d think my session results would be underwhelming.

Warning: This is going to be very difficult to articulate, but worth understanding.

I’ve been trying to put words to what I’ve wanted to describe for at least 3 sessions now, but I couldn’t find the words. I had a sense of clarity about the way I look at my thoughts or how I “think”.

I’ll put it like this- let’s say we turn the perception of what our “thoughts” are into a visual. Before a few sessions ago, I had visualized my thoughts as a white canvas with many dots but never one singular dot in the center of a blank canvas.

I don’t even really know if I’ve ever been able to conceive what it means to have..

“A thought”- singularly.

Pure isolation with not the slightest rattle of focus from any subconscious, bodily, or visually distracting entity? One SINGLE thought, 100% devoid of all others?

Does this sound ridiculous? Well it feels ridiculous. I don’t know why I can’t put this into the right words.

I am trying to say that during a session, I felt like I had experienced a singular thought in true isolation from all other thoughts. That’s what it “felt” like. I didn’t find this “feeling” familiar. It was a type of focus that is totally alien to me.

I thought yesterday was a fluke. (222%) Maybe it was. Or maybe it wasn’t?!

DAY 9 SCORES:

BEST SCORE: (A)

This is VAST improvement of brain activity and control. Now we need consistency. This is getting interesting.

it felt like my headband was actually cutting off blood flow to the point where I felt it would cause another headache again today. I loosed it a bit about 4-5 minutes into a slow-starting game. During first 6 minutes of the session I just wasn’t truly dialed in at all. Then suddenly I remembered what I was onto the other night.

It’s like remembering something you can’t articulate. Like remembering a “feeling”, or trying to recall something you know there are no words for. It’s like trying to summon something mentally. It’s like I sound more ridiculous the more I try to explain it.

I couldn’t remember what I was trying to remember and then…I remembered it.

ANYWAY, IN SIMPLER TERMS:

I am officially beginning to take conscious control of my Prefrontal Cortex. 🎉

Is this the best part? Is this the eureka; when the real brain-training truly begins?

Probably.

I really don’t know. I have nothing to compare it to and deliberately did very little digging into other people’s experiences. I went full out avant-garde on this one.

NOTES:

• Found most comfortable headset tightness.

• Believe (3) 10 Minute games is optimal

• High activity and focus although very tired

I would definitely say that consistency is important. I’ve forced myself to do this even when I don’t feel like it and that seems to be paying off. I’m playing a mobile game with my brain with discernable control, which alone, tics and case study aside, pretty neat. That’s all for today.